I wanted to share some thoughts on the fact that I’ve made it a little over half way through my pregnancy, praise the Lord! It is such a sigh of relief to have made it this far! I apologize in advance that this post is just a jumbled mess but that’s kinda how my brain is these days so just bare with me! 😉 I am so over the moon knowing that I’m carrying our first daughter! I’ve literally dreamed about having a girl my whole life and I am so so thankful that it’s actually happening! All those years of playing house and dolls you always imagine what it will be like when you’re actually a mom but not everyone gets to experience it and I know we are so blessed! So that being said, know that all my body and exhaustion complaints do not take away from that fact that I am so grateful to get to be on this journey, but it’s not been easy and I’m doing the best I can everyday! 🙂
- We made it halfway!!!
- Baby is the size of a banana
- We had our ultrasound today (you can find our gender reveal post, here)
- Baby’s measuring 5 days early
- So excited to start decorating
- Baby is the size of a bok choy
- We started designing the nursery
- Baby girl is always poking my bladder
- I’m still wanting fruit all the time
- I can’t wait for October
- Baby is the size of corn on the cob
- I’m having major pregnancy insomnia and am up hours at a time at night
- I’m so hot all the time (the heat makes me nauseous)
- I’m still craving sweets, especially watermelon
- Baby is the size of a papaya
- I saw my stomach move for the first time yesterday
- Baby girl’s moving a lot
- I want to shop 24/7
First of all shout out to anyone who has been or is currently pregnant. You are a rockstar! Cheers on surviving the best and worst time of your life! I hope someone gave you a plaque along with your baby in the hospital because girlfriend you earned it! 😉 Note to husband- I expect a plaque as well as some other amazing gift upon completion of this nine (ten) month marathon I will be completing in October, thank you in advance! NO, I’m not joking. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and the next person that tells me they loved being pregnant or that I should enjoy this time is going to get a knuckle sandwhich. For real. Don’t mess with me. I am sleep deprived and under caffeinated on a daily basis and I am readyyyyy to be done being pregnant, thank you very much. And what is this nonsense about a “blissful” second trimester?! HA! Make me laugh, actually don’t I might pee my pants a little. #thestruggleisreal But for reals I think I had like four weeks where I didn’t need to take a nap after dinner but never did I get this “superwoman” /”I have so much energy” complex that I was told would come around. “Oh just wait you’ll feel less tired and have so much energy” —-> FALSE! I’ve never been so tired and unmotivated and crabby and hungry (all the time) in my life. I haven’t slept through the night a single time in my pregnancy and it’s getting reallllly old. And yes I know it’s preparing me for a newborn, thank you everyone who has “comforted” me with that statement but that doesn’t make it easy or better. I don’t have a newborn right now and I would like to sleep but thanks for the encouragement! Not. Why do people love saying, “oh, just you wait!” when you complain about something? Like lets focus on now and tell me you feel bad for me and give me a snack and lets not talk about it getting worse, agreed? OK, great.
All that being said, there are soo many current moms and moms to be who have been such a help and support during my pregnancy so far. I am so so thankful for all the recommendations for my registry, ideas on how to alleviate symptoms and general encouragement you have offered me throughout the past 5 (6) months. I couldn’t have made it without you all! So thank you!! I can’t even explain the constant mind struggle you have everyday of wanting to be thankful for this journey and hating yourself for not having a better attitude but it’s really just so hard. And you won’t and can’t understand it until you go through it yourself. I wish I was one of women who just loved every second of their pregnancy and felt so beautiful and wasn’t constantly uncomfortable but sadly that’s not me and I would rather be real with what I’m going through and not sugar coat it. But I will tell you this, you will never feel more like a celebrity then when you’re pregnant! For reals, people love pregnant women; from offering you the best seat to sit down, to getting things for you so you don’t have to move, to giving you more compliments then any other time of your life (probably because they feel bad for you but hey I’ll take it!) it’s nice to be a little spoiled! 🙂
If you made it all the way through this ramble, I appreciate it! 😉 What can I say I have lots of thoughts on this pregnancy of mine. Thanks for all the love and support! 16ish weeks to go! But whose counting?! Me, that’s who! Every. Single. Day. We’re one step closer!! Can’t wait to meet our baby girl!!! Ah!!
“Pregnancy is the happiest reason ever for feeling like crap.”