I have officially entered my second trimester, thank God! 🙂 Let me tell you these last 8 weeks have been some of the hardest/most challenging/exhausting of my entire life. I can honestly say I was completely unprepared for how my body would respond to (my first) pregnancy. If you’re like me you have loads of friends who have been through pregnancy so I thought I knew what I was in for with mentions of some morning sickness, tiredness and weird cravings. HA! I think by the time some moms share the news of their pregnancy they’re so far past the awfulness of the beginning weeks that they don’t talk about it. Or maybe they believe ignorance is bliss and don’t want to freak the rest of us out. Or maybe they’re part of the lucky few that have this blissful first trimester and so there are no horrors to share, you lucky ducks!! Really, I’m happy for you and obvi majorly jealous of the easy time you had and would never wish an awful pregnancy on anyone.
So in efforts to keep it REAL over here, hopefully you’ve learned that’s important to me by now, let me share all about my first trimester and why it made me say more than once I am NEVER doing this again, ha! I will preface now that if God blesses us with another child we will be SO excited but that does not mean that pregnancy is easy. Just so you know. Also this is going to be a very long post.
In the beginning: The hubs and I had been trying for 5 months and for whatever reason I was COMPLETELY convinced this month (January) I was pregnant. Like most moms trying to conceive the counting from menstration to ovulation to menstration feels like forever and you naturally start reading into anything that your body does that might feel slightly different. For someone who had bad periods and all the symptoms that went along with them I had a feeling it wouldn’t feel much different then waiting for my period to come and I was right. But there were a few signs that it was more then a period, I almost threw up once which never happened to me, I was getting easily winded, extra emotional and my boobs hurt even more then normal (sorry to any guys reading this but just keeping it candid over here) and honestly I just had a feeling. The morning after I ovulated I just knew this time we were pregnant. Don’t ask me how, God just gave me a feeling I guess. So because of that I started taking pregnancy tests probably wayy to early and by probably I mean definetly but I just knew one of the tests was going to be positive it was just a matter of time. I remember after taking 3 negative tests I told one of my besties that I was still 99% sure I was pregnant even though I was getting negative results so I went out and bought another box of tests and took 2 more and low and behold they were faintly positive! AH! They were fainter because I took them at night and you should take ovulation and pregnancy tests in the morning for the best results, just an FYI. 🙂 Also it’s nearly impossible to get a false positive unlike a false negative-see the previous 3 I took too early, ha! 😉 So the next day I took another one in the afternoon and it was also faintly positive but they say to wait another couple days if they aren’t strong lines. Side note-splurge for the digital tests it will save you lots of wondering. At this point I had 3 negative and 3 kinda positives and was out of tests again. I had one of my besties and a few of my siblings over for dinner and we were chatting after my siblings left and she’s like I have a feeling you’re pregnant and I was like omg I’ve taken 6 tests and 3 are kinda positive but I’m out of tests and should wait to take anymore until tomorrow or the next day. She was like no way, we’re going to Walgreens now and I’m buying you a couple more. #truefriend So off we went, bought a couple more tests and came home to try again. After what felt like the longest 3 minutes ever, she happened to look at the test first and started screaming and so I looked and it said “YES+” and so now we’re both screaming and I’m trying not to cry and also kinda freaking out and can’t believe it and had oops I champagne at dinner and omg that was my last drink for a long time and ahhhh! Yes all those things did run through my head at the same time, don’t judge me. 😉Since the hubs was out with one of his friends for the night we immediately ran out to baby gap to find a cute present to surprise the hubs with when I told him I was pregnant. I was so happy to find an adorable onesie that said “daddy’s favorite gift” so I wrapped it up the pregnancy test to give him when he got home. I filmed him opening it and it was such a sweet moment but in efforts to keep some things private I’ve decided not to share it. Just imagine disbelief and big big smiles! 🙂 Is that not the cutest onesie you’ve ever seen? I’ll probably put it in a shadow box in the nursery to save with the ultrasound pics we’ve gotten so far and the one’s we’ll get later on, but we’ll see! 🙂 Nursery plans are still in the works since we don’t know if this little babe is a boy or girl yet but be prepared for lots of nursery talk! 🙂
So since this post has taken me 2 weeks to write, ha, pregnancy has really ruined all of my motivation it’s a daily struggle, I’m going to condense the weekly summaries. At 8 weeks we got to have our first ultrasound and hear the baby’s heart beat for the first time which was so amazing! I had no idea we would get to hear it this early and see it beating through it’s teeny tiny chest on the screen! Even though s/he was only the size of a strawberry there it was beating away all on it’s own! I don’t think either of us will ever forget that moment! 🙂 I started my weekly bump pics at 8 weeks because I literally couldn’t get myself together from weeks 4-8 to do a chalkboard. I had NO energy and felt so sick all day.The amount of carbs this baby has and still wants to eat is insane. But my doctor said it’s normal in your first trimester to crave starch so I just gave the baby what it wanted and what helped to keep me full and not nauseous. Between weeks 10-11 I was finally able to eat some veggies and larger amounts of food at once and wasn’t falling asleep at 6. I was also able to stomach a cup of half caff in the morning finally! Also hello giant boobs.So it looks like I have a bump but let me tell you I was so so bloated. I think I look the largest at 11 weeks then any other times in my first trimester. It was insane. My digestion reallllly slowed down to give baby all the nutrients it needed and it was painful let me tell you!My all day nausea was officially gone at this point, thank the Lord. And now I am just constantly hungry! Like nothing keeps me full longer then an hour, it’s insane. I’ve never eaten this much in my life! The hubs even comments on how much I can put away these days, ha!
So sorry baby there is no 13 week bump pic! I flew out that morning for a long birthday weekend with my girlfriends and when I came back the hubs left for 5 days and came back at week 14. There wasn’t any change in my body during those weeks, I did get super nauseous driving in Colorado and I never get car sick so that wasn’t fun. And I was finally able to stay up later and not need a post dinner nap so that’s a huge improvement! Baby was the size of a peach! 🙂
First Trimester symptoms:
- nauseous all day
- EXHAUSTED- like I can’t even describe the tiredness. Needed an afternoon nap and asleep by 6 every night, can’t function well during the day tired.
- boobs so sore I cried and have already added 4 inches in my bust! Insanity.
- skin sensitivity/redness
- food aversions
- very vivid dreams
- constant trips to the bathroom
- dry mouth for the first couple weeks-clementines kinda helped
- lived on eggs/fruit/bread the first few weeks
- hot flashes and heat sensitivity
- rollercoaster emotions
- forgetfullness- pregnancy brain is SO real
First Trimester food aversions:
- anything flavorful or spicy which is crazy since we LOVE spice over here
- COFFEE 🙁 🙁 🙁
- anything hot (temperature wise) gave me hot flashes
- thai food
- there’s more I’m just blanking right now, ha
So as you can see, my first trimester my body was just all over the place due to the hormones and changes going on in my body. I am SO SO thankful for a helpful, supportive and understanding hubby and for so many mama friends who helped me make it through. Now that I’ve turned a corner and feel more myself, besides the tiredness and lack of daily motivation, I have more energy to be excited and thankful for this time in my life. I meant what I said in our announcement that I don’t take it for granted how blessed we are to get to be on this journey, it’s just been so much harder then I thought it would be! No one likes feeling hungover allll day everyday for weeks. 😉 I want to be real with this time in my life and prepare any mamas to be out there that your body might feel like it has been taken over by aliens and you don’t feel like yourself or know what’s going on and that it’s ok to feel awful and not like it but that it WILL pass and you WILL come out the other side. 🙂 Oh and let yourself rest and go to bed early and relax. You need it and so does the baby. It was so hard to let myself lay around even though I physically couldn’t do anything else I felt and still feel so lazy most days, but I’m trying to give myself grace and know that this is the way thing are right now and it’s ok. 🙂
Thanks for being patient with my these last few months! I’m working on getting myself back together over here! 😉
“Every good and perfect gift is from above.”
PS- A few friends told me God allows you to forget the terrible weeks and that’s been so true for me. Even writing this I was having a hard time remembering all the things that made it so so hard. So take comfort in that as well! 🙂 And you’ll never realize how strong you are or what your body is capable of until you go through something like this. Life doesn’t stop because you’re pregnant and you still have to get up everyday and go to work and function in society and that strength just comes from somewhere inside you. You. Can. Do. It! 🙂 I’m applauding you over here, you go mama!